I finally broke and decided to book a 3-week trip, so will be flying to Croatia next week spending a week in Hvar and then going to Sarajevo for the Film Festival and some mountain trekking, followed by another week on the sea near Dubrovnik. I haven’t been back for 2 years and right now it just seems like the best thing to do, especially as I have family there. Hopefully I will have a clearer head after that and can make plans for a bigger trip in the future.
I’ve dealt with a lot of loss over this past year, and in some ways it feels like I’m back to square one, having made no progress since last summer. Rationally I know that’s not true, but having something and losing it, is far harder than never having it at all, the pain so much deeper.